Take care now

I have forgotten how much I loved watching Grey's Anatomy or any other one of my shows I used to watch faithfully before I moved here.


This week has been a very emotional and eventful one. I wish it was in a good way but not at all. Shit just keeps happening, making me realize just how much somethings are not always what they seem or are.


I look at my friends and I envy them in how they have friends from like childhood they still keep in touch with and stay friends with. How their friendships have grown in years and still going on strong till this day. I cant remember the last time I talked to Betty. She is the one I could count close to a childhood friend but we have grown into very different people and have different values I guess that we not be remotely close to what I want us to be.

If I look back can't think of anyone I would have been close with like people I see around me. I guess my situation never allowed it since ICS closed up and we all moved around Nahomi and Bersabeh just lost contact with each other and again just
grew apart.

(Off topic: this girl is sitting on my bed shaking her feet and shaking my whole bed it is fucking pissing me off. She seems really cool but fuck you are in someones room be social get off your fucking phone and quit shaking my fucking bed.)

Family wise like I said I got into it with my mom the other day. and yesterday my dad tried to get to apologize to her and stuff. Its whatever he might call me tomorrow to try and get me to do it. But I am not about to tell her I am sorry for her making me feel like shit like she always does and having her way.

Love life wise: Its all still the same. I am trying to just get back to how it used to be before all of this. Just me myself and I for another 3 years(maybe) but He is gone packed his shit and left. That is all I needed I guess to call it quits once and for all. I will always have those feelings what ever they might be for a few reasons and he knows that. I just hope he won't use those( my weakness so to speak) against me. Coz I would hate to find out he is. I don't know. But he is gone and that's it I guess. Nope point in thinking or hoping shit all is well. I am getting there it will be back to good old me in no time...as far as everyone is concerned.

I am feeling my McCORMICK APPLE so I am going to stop here.