Brain Pain

I can't trust no one
Seeing you amongst the flock
Are you just like them?
Nothing different
Its breaks me to know this
Not the first time I'm realizing it though
Why do I keep coming back?
Not walk away and never look back?
I don't want to live like this.
Not anymore.
I want to be content
Stay content
Not doubt your intentions
Not fail my own standards.


What is it I do?
I don't even know
Told I would be different
The one to stand up against the mass and say NO
The hero in the story...the exception
What am I now?
Just that one
Blending in the background.