Change

I feel like I have made a new turn in my life where I am content in a most parts of my life right now just not school... not yet( I will get there though)

A friend of mine pointed out that I didn't look the same and that I was acting dandy the other day that's when it hit me. I have reached that point, the moment I have been waiting, of refreshment, renewal and just clear content. I feel like I have moved on from a chapter of my life that I was feeling drained in. To a point where I just look back at the good stuff having learned so much from it. I am ready to good back in meet the challenges that life has for me. Enough with the negativity get on with the positive. I am just going to look life from that direction for now.

My parents come back tomorrow and that's going to bring with it a lot of baggage, things that need to be dealt with and talked about. Questions will be asked that I can not or don't want to answer not just because I had confrontation but because I have found my answers and they don't necessarily need to know them. They might be part of my life but they are not my life so it all boils down to what is best for me in the long run and how is it for me now.


I can see I have changed so much in comparison to my friends. I have been seeing it little by little the past to weeks over the short time I am out with them. But not just that I have a very different outlook on this freedom of not having parents here just because of this year away from them. It will be hard being told what to do and when to do it by parents and what not. I had always felt a bit out of place with the people I go out with but right now I just feel like they have stayed the same and I have grown mentally in such a different direction. Sitting down and talking with the girls about getting ones own place and being out on your own where as the guys are still living life like they are in high school and not in college. Don't get me wrong I am not looking down on anyone but it just seems like they really haven't grown out of their childishness in so many ways.


This is not all I want to say but my tram await...More like I will miss it if i am not out of the house right now so.




Happy BIRTHDAY to my girl Rora!!!! I will have more to say on that one later too... you will get a whole blog to yourself m'dear!!!