Backspacing

I have deprived you of the attention you deserve year after year I think some where deep down inside that's what you have been waiting for. But I didn't realize it till one summer night. I was a late late night too.
I don't know what it is about these 3 am talks that question both the past and the future
(Let me pause for a moment and think...hmmm)The Future?
Whats that for us
All I know is I'm grateful for the past...No joke(as not big papa but the other one would say DA-ask me I will tell you what that stand for)
I personally think you are retarded at times
but its your pride
Ah that pride but its the way you are
and that's absolutely alright.
That makes you the unique one
you know what sets you apart from all those that have come and gone?
Its that THIMUN 2007 was not the time I thought you would show up
None the less stick around.
It was faith I was working reception at lunch.
An accident I left my applications in your hands
my luck I got to see you in conference
and walk home that night
Looking back at all that and more it makes me smile from the core..eeks
Even though you backspace your words online
In the end those thoughts are bound to come out.
And if its really the way you say it is
I feel special.
But I am at a lose for words to show you how much your worth in my life.
If only you could read minds...you're still not to bad right now.
But my (or is it your)turn (which ever) will come where you will reach the realization I have.
Don't worry though,
you will always be my cripple gay retard.