Sneaking around(then it was because I really wanted it it last night/today I actually needed it) for things that I that I guess weren't really worth if if my mother was to know. In my opinion however I learned what I needed to know which then made people think I was on a higher level than I actually was and now (well a few hours ago)I find myself face to face with what started it all and I didn't know where to start, with telling what I have learned how I've grown/changed
I almost missed the train it was a close call with the ticket lady.
Looking out the window I see the residue of a rainy night (I was in it at some point in some what manner). I wonder what that black lady with her nappy ass hair and a lip piercing that look like it wasn't done right, is going to A'dam for? Even the rest around her? You can clearly tell the business men from the students. I wonder what category someones just like myself puts me in. Dressed in formal pants, tennis shoes a leather jacket and a bag with a folder full of documents. Probably think i am a student at the Hotel school[How ironic if they really did thought huh ...it would make my smile from the core(that's my new thing to say)]
Girl to my right in red coat seems like she is going through.....
Definitely a student she is.
Ah! Typical student 'I am in a rush to have breakfast so lets grab a box of juice, etc [Chocomel]
This scenery is so beautiful. It makes me want to reconsider wanting to leave[if only I was quick with my camera you could see what I am talking about]
Looking out the window I see the residue of a rainy night (I was in it at some point in some what manner). I wonder what that black lady with her nappy ass hair and a lip piercing that look like it wasn't done right, is going to A'dam for? Even the rest around her? You can clearly tell the business men from the students. I wonder what category someones just like myself puts me in. Dressed in formal pants, tennis shoes a leather jacket and a bag with a folder full of documents. Probably think i am a student at the Hotel school[How ironic if they really did thought huh ...it would make my smile from the core(that's my new thing to say)]
Girl to my right in red coat seems like she is going through.....
Inspection paradox
Birth-and-death quearing... [I can't see that far on her page]
Birth-and-death quearing... [I can't see that far on her page]
Definitely a student she is.
Ah! Typical student 'I am in a rush to have breakfast so lets grab a box of juice, etc [Chocomel]
The last word was Model... Birth-and-death quearing Model
Hmm that's a lot of equations in this book. She has got and its in English so most probably Leiden University
Hmm that's a lot of equations in this book. She has got and its in English so most probably Leiden University
We have only traveled 10 minutes...why is it slowing down?
I forgot the train stops at Leiden
I forgot the train stops at Leiden
Nope not Leiden. She is still here. So Amsterdam University College.
Man in front of me is sitting here in his own world on his [DRUM Roll Please] Berry...Who does that remind me of?
I wonder if that is how he will be when is older with a ring on his finger just a lot more darker with a more up to date phone at that time...maybe a brush in the hand still?[ what do you think Rora?]
Running for the train I totally forgot about the coffee I said I would get while talking to David during my printer disaster. Yes I get quite a few of them at home and stayed up trying to get it o work so I could print my application forms and not mess up this appointment.
My mom woke up took the vacuum cleaner and just went to work on that printer front and back.
Man in front of me is sitting here in his own world on his [DRUM Roll Please] Berry...Who does that remind me of?
I wonder if that is how he will be when is older with a ring on his finger just a lot more darker with a more up to date phone at that time...maybe a brush in the hand still?[ what do you think Rora?]
Running for the train I totally forgot about the coffee I said I would get while talking to David during my printer disaster. Yes I get quite a few of them at home and stayed up trying to get it o work so I could print my application forms and not mess up this appointment.
My mom woke up took the vacuum cleaner and just went to work on that printer front and back.
This dude is singing 'she got something I like'. I want to have a specific thing that he likes and can't get from no one but me. Ask me what that thing is....I couldn't tell ya.
Its going to be a long wait for my appointment. I will be getting[brain freeze for a good minute]
Its going to be a long wait for my appointment. I will be getting[brain freeze for a good minute]
Sleep getting heavy on the eye Trust playing in my ear
Ah! Schipol I will be here next week exactly this time[that's the airport of all those that lack dutch life knowledge]
I felt my feet get cold
I almost missed getting off the train but some cutie woke me up and said we are here.[with out that coffee I passed out]
I felt my feet get cold
I almost missed getting off the train but some cutie woke me up and said we are here.[with out that coffee I passed out]
In half a sleep mode I paniced a little [from the core] I didn't recognize A'dam central that well not until I walked down from the platforms. I had totally forgotten to check which tram goes to Museonplein[Embassy street] I had a vague idea of where to catch the tram not sure which one though. I asked the information lady.
I did a better job at all this last year. Because it was my first time and messing up my visa issue would have meant I was stuck in the place I was. Mosdef not a place I wanted to be at. This time around [in the back of my head] I had a thought they gave me a visa before I am just renewing it this time don't worry too much about it and this care free spirit almost cost me a lot of money.
I now sit in the gorgeous little tunnel shaped care[the closest to the embassy] because if I am not mistaken I might have actually gotten here about over an hour too early for my appointment[ all my time telling devices are still in Kansas time]
Can you tell I am eager to be back? When I say I can't wait to be back people wonder if its because Europe is boring and that I find Pitt better than The Hague but that's not it at all. For me Pitt is a place I can be myself to the fullest[ I am still figuring out who that is for those who might be asking who is that exactly], where I can be, say and do as I please with out constantly being reminded of cultural and and beliefs I got raised by. From these I have kept some but others do not fit me like a good shoe for the path I want to take in MY life in the 21st century we live in. I feel like my parents are still living in the past in their minds but think too much about about the future too much they can drive a whole clan of people Insane.
I am not saying live life with no aim, have no plans but please please for once you need to sit back as people of God leave some things in his hands. Your constant thinking and worrying it not going to change the out come of things but just because you stress and drag us[Mahly and pomy] along.
It's amazing! I love just writing. I have decided to re-read all my books from my High school English Literature class over again this summer and coming fall, Finish the ones I started and gave up half way[ a habit I have had]
I just love the busy city life, the opportunity of having to meet so many new people from anywhere and everywhere those people that come but are most likely not to stick around or keep in touch
I did a better job at all this last year. Because it was my first time and messing up my visa issue would have meant I was stuck in the place I was. Mosdef not a place I wanted to be at. This time around [in the back of my head] I had a thought they gave me a visa before I am just renewing it this time don't worry too much about it and this care free spirit almost cost me a lot of money.
I now sit in the gorgeous little tunnel shaped care[the closest to the embassy] because if I am not mistaken I might have actually gotten here about over an hour too early for my appointment[ all my time telling devices are still in Kansas time]
Can you tell I am eager to be back? When I say I can't wait to be back people wonder if its because Europe is boring and that I find Pitt better than The Hague but that's not it at all. For me Pitt is a place I can be myself to the fullest[ I am still figuring out who that is for those who might be asking who is that exactly], where I can be, say and do as I please with out constantly being reminded of cultural and and beliefs I got raised by. From these I have kept some but others do not fit me like a good shoe for the path I want to take in MY life in the 21st century we live in. I feel like my parents are still living in the past in their minds but think too much about about the future too much they can drive a whole clan of people Insane.
I am not saying live life with no aim, have no plans but please please for once you need to sit back as people of God leave some things in his hands. Your constant thinking and worrying it not going to change the out come of things but just because you stress and drag us[Mahly and pomy] along.
I keep getting lost in a blank thought starting at the chandeliers hanging from the bars on both sides of me
It's amazing! I love just writing. I have decided to re-read all my books from my High school English Literature class over again this summer and coming fall, Finish the ones I started and gave up half way[ a habit I have had]
Again I was gone...but blank
I just love this Environment around me. I can't help but wonder how different my life would be if I actually went to Hotel school here. I would be getting ready to go on a six month internship at the end of the summer.I just love the busy city life, the opportunity of having to meet so many new people from anywhere and everywhere those people that come but are most likely not to stick around or keep in touch
Right now the clock couldn't move any slower than it is already. My God I have at least another hour till my meeting. But then again If I had left an hour later than I did it would have been calling it close and may be even being late
One thing I learned this year amongst many
To be early is to be is to be on time
to be on time is to be late
and to be late is to be left behind
[love my kandies]
One thing I learned this year amongst many
To be early is to be is to be on time
to be on time is to be late
and to be late is to be left behind
[love my kandies]
And who wants to be left behind? Not me and I certainly don't like being late either. Its a bit chilly in here but I don't want to put my jas back on
Back to my books and the main reason I want to read them again, finish ones I started is some things Ms. Farrell [ my first English teacher at ISH] said to me.. If I want to be a good writer[ I don't think I have the gift to write like some people do] read read read.
I am also going to take a creative writing class either online or just to fill credits at some point.
Someone keep check on me? [Cookie... can I give you that job? you seem to see potentials in me neither I nor other people seem to see. Okay may be mr not big papa does a little I guess.... he has said somethings you might want to shake his hand for. do you even get on here unless I mention it during our talk? Just to let you know I quite like your spontaneous anonymous comments]
When someone asks what is your type how many of you have a list or description and how many times is that a well thought out answer instead of spur of the moment. I am starting to figure my type out or that's what I plan to do with the me, myself and I time I am taking off like before my recent involvement.. Figure myself out more in that area not just settle. No man is worth my sacrifice if I am not being made a sacrifice for.[ the one thing I agree with my mom about]
Its almost 10:30 appointment at 11:15. Should I go yet. I think I will wait for another 15 minutes. My bladder has been trying to open the sphincter and let it out for a bit but sphincter hasn't failed me yet....haha
I don;t want to move from here. I could sit here all day and just zoooonnnnn out for a while look around me and keep scribbling. You rarely hear me say I want to stay in one place for long, I just love it here [this feeling , spot, trail of thought, mind set I have which is none in specific but a small dose of everything after each blank moment.]
I am waiting on music I was promised. I wonder when its coming but I hope its worth my wait when it does. I'm trying this new thing called patience thing as part of my growing process i guess.
Ah bathroom time...
then embassy
Laterz!
Back to my books and the main reason I want to read them again, finish ones I started is some things Ms. Farrell [ my first English teacher at ISH] said to me.. If I want to be a good writer[ I don't think I have the gift to write like some people do] read read read.
I am also going to take a creative writing class either online or just to fill credits at some point.
Someone keep check on me? [Cookie... can I give you that job? you seem to see potentials in me neither I nor other people seem to see. Okay may be mr not big papa does a little I guess.... he has said somethings you might want to shake his hand for. do you even get on here unless I mention it during our talk? Just to let you know I quite like your spontaneous anonymous comments]
When someone asks what is your type how many of you have a list or description and how many times is that a well thought out answer instead of spur of the moment. I am starting to figure my type out or that's what I plan to do with the me, myself and I time I am taking off like before my recent involvement.. Figure myself out more in that area not just settle. No man is worth my sacrifice if I am not being made a sacrifice for.[ the one thing I agree with my mom about]
Its almost 10:30 appointment at 11:15. Should I go yet. I think I will wait for another 15 minutes. My bladder has been trying to open the sphincter and let it out for a bit but sphincter hasn't failed me yet....haha
I don;t want to move from here. I could sit here all day and just zoooonnnnn out for a while look around me and keep scribbling. You rarely hear me say I want to stay in one place for long, I just love it here [this feeling , spot, trail of thought, mind set I have which is none in specific but a small dose of everything after each blank moment.]
I am waiting on music I was promised. I wonder when its coming but I hope its worth my wait when it does. I'm trying this new thing called patience thing as part of my growing process i guess.
Ah bathroom time...
then embassy
Laterz!
"I believe unarmed truth and unconditional love will have the final word in reality. This is why right temporarily defeated is stronger than evil triumphant"
Martin Luther king
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