I wouldn't know how else to put it.

I am about to be on that train ride again! Tomorrow!

Start of a new school year for me[ I know you're thinking school year doesn't start till August]
This is second time I am leaving the place I called home for 19 years of my life and heading to well I guess some might call it my new home but its school. I haven't felt comfortable to call my parents house home more some reasons more than others but I am doing this finding myself and being my own person thing on a much higher level this time around. And I feel like its going to be different. Sitting around for a whole month with not much to do other than look at my computer screen, sit and think and see what my life was the past couple of years well got me thinking[again] or how I promised myself I would do things differently when I found the time and place that allowed it.

My first year in Pitt was nothing like I wanted it to be. A disappointment in quite a few places and me being as I am I tend to weigh more on those than the success and achievements.

For a moment though I don't want no one feeling like they were part of my disappointment[may be you were at some point but thats a different story]

I love my girls... They made my second half of the school year what it was and thinking about it makes me smile from the core. [I don't know if I said this in another blog] I want you guys to be the people I go visit or talk to when I am 50 and we look back at our days at the boot!

Talk about our plickde plick plick time or lack of [rora]

I have learned so much from some people and they know who they are. Those that see great things in me and have told me so Thank You! that meant a lot more than you think it did.

I know there are some of you out there that don't realize where you stand and what values I hold when it comes to your friendship and I hope one day you will. And when you come to that realization I get to know of it.

I hate interruptions like un expected text messages and people acting childish over little things.
I am trying to get a blog post in one mind set thank you.

People never fail to surprise me at the most unexpected times.
Jamie[if you ever keep up with this]
I heard you all the way through the other day. I understood all that you said regradless of your intoxication. It all made sense[make a prat out of yourself? never] Bobo and I talked about it and enjoyed it quite a bit actually. You made my night. Your rolling paper helicopter intreasting if only I could see you doing it instead of your mid body section in the camera.
But Keeping in touch is at two way street and neither of us were on that road this past year.
For me it was because I felt like you would see that I have changed and not accept it or I just didn't know how [being on different parts of the world doing completly differen things with our lives] to find that common ground for us but for all the things you have said and we talked about the other night I think we're already standing on that base we just need to connect.
And thanks to this technologicaly well equiped world, you mac, my hp shall not fail us unless we fail ourselves.

Back to my train! the ride will be shorter but as effective in my will to scrible stuff down I hope. Just be gone in a peacful place or productive not everything in life is pretty colors right.

But getting on and off the train will be a pain for sure. 3 sets of bags all by myself? Wish me luck.
Sad I depended on getting a ride from me father who has a meeting early morning. atleast will have helping hand when I get back to the land of OZ or close to it.