Late but here

I lay in bed talking, texting
constantly trying to keep you out of my mind
I really do.
But I wake up dreaming of you
hoping I had a reply
but seems like I am the only one
stuck in reverse , still looking back.
Its seemed so real till I woke up
I am late, late to work , late to feel
and left behind.

I woke up this morning

and rolled right out of bed got dressed to go to work and I felt good. I have been talking about giving up smoking for a week now but past week was when I smoked the most since I started I think. I smoked a pack every night and next morning I paid for it by coughing my lungs out. I felt good not to have smoked not a single thing all day yesterday and today is day two still :) I am going to need something to do immediately after work because if my mind has time to wonder I will end up wanting one.

I have had a great weekend so far it has been by far the best minus the fact that my right hand girl my side rib isn't here.

Switching up people you hang out with really helps in the attitude change I have been talking about. and with the people I have met we have decided we wouldn't swap numbers nothing we are keeping it old school... come knock on my door if you want to hang out or do something so much more personal and It has worked fine for us so far.

I-day

I have these thoughts of wanting to be something more than I am...Trying to find that drive and passion in life seems to be a lot harder than I thought.

Trying to let go of things in life that seem to bring me down and tie my loose ends is taking time.
As the days go by I seem to find shame in myself about my past that I have

Its all a turn around

I don't have much to say... Every time I think or something I am no where near to being able to write.

My days are good my nights are something else.
getting caught in situations I would like to avoid
having to explain myself more than I need to
when they already know how it is
met boy number one nothing different from the rest
met boy number 2 has me still asking questions
wondering where he went
and there is boy number 3, 4,5,6 they all won't get a hint and let go.
but that one boy, man... lets leave it to that.
Need to cut down on my habits start living it up with out the influence
of my corrupted mind cleans my body start fresh? Can we?
Its the end of body cleansing of to the next one need all the limbs for that one



Laterz!